Sunday, April 23, 2006
Boyfriend. Lover. Fiance

I have a boyfriend. I like the way he gently kisses my cheeks when the wind blows. I like it when he whispers sweet nothings when the waves crashes onto the shore. He presents the stars as candlelights and flower in full bloom as sweet roses. He tells me the reflections on the sea are like glittering diamonds for me. When I am down, he shows me cute hamsters to brighten up my day. He is my boyfriend, my lover, my fiance. I am his bride. He is my beloved, Jesus Christ. His love is new every morning. His love is everlasting and his love endures forever. I am his Princesa and he is my Príncipe Charming. He romances me through and through and woos me till I say I do. And I want to tell him, I love him a lot too.

Thursday, April 20, 2006
Lamentations

Let me lament, just a little bit.

I am HOPELESS! I have been "Hope-Less" for the past 3 years. Return me my Hope please, pretty please.... If you are the culprit, who have taken my Hope away, please return it to me. Stop grinning from ear to ear and pretend like nothing has happened ok? Since Expo, I have been bugging you to restore my Hope. Hmph! Just because I left it on your table 3 years back doesn't mean you can conveniently keep it running in your comfort zone. If you are a Hillsongs fan, you will know what I am talking about. Join me in this prayer: "Lord, convict the culprit to return me my HOPE!"

Culprit: You know I exaggerated the tone ya. But I'm sure it's point taken. Then act on it ok? Smile, because it's free.....

Talking about CDs, someone was supposed to lend me her Corrinne May debut album. After talking for sosososososo lo....ng, I think someone forgot about it. Therefore, my legs brought me to a CD shop and my mouth made me ask a very expensive question:"Do you have Corrinne May's 1st and 2nd album?" "Yes we have." And my hands and my brain convicted me to take the money out and bought the 2 CDs. But guess what? The 2 CDs are left at one corner, with their cellophane wrap still intact.

I was supposed to receive a Chris Tomlim CD as a birthday gift. However, 人算不如天算, the CD was accidentally given away to someone else. So I thought it was really smart of me to buy the same CD to a good friend as a birthday gift, cos I know for sure she will like it. And my mouth asked a 不要脸 question:" Can you lend this to me after you are done with it?" Of cos my good friend would not reject me. But the thing is, my good friend has not passed the CD to me until now. Should I go get it myself? But my worst fears are it will have the same fate as the 2 CDs above.

Recently someone introduced me to More than Life Album, with the super nice Evermore and other songs that are highly recommended. Hmm....temptations are strongly luring me to buy them. I better be holier-than-thou and pray about it. Haha.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006
One life. Live it. Just live it.

God is shaking up the ground and awakening people. At least, God woke me up. A friend, or rather 2 friends, had gone home to be with the Lord. Only within a span of 3 months. What is God trying to say? Is he still sovereign in this? Can I continue to trust him?

During the first death, I was pretty affected by it. He was young, promising, talented and I'm sure he could be used greatly by God. Just 1 month before his departure, I met him and he was recovering well. I was thinking, God has his best plan. When you recover, you can run for the Lord. However, just when I thought he was doing well, God decided that time was up for him to go home. Why Lord? Why this time? Well, His ways are higher than my ways. I will never be able to answer those burning questions. I only know, he is now in a better place than I am, where there is no more pain and suffering, only lots of love from the Father himself. In fact, I should congratulate him that he has "promoted".

One important lesson I have learnt is to treasure your life. Life is really short and fragile. I always tell my girls, we need to have the urgency to share the good news because our family members and friends are dying. Spirtually of cos, but they can also die physically. By then, it would be gameover.

And not only our loved ones can die physically, we can also die! We are running against time! So all the more, we need to share this passion of Christ more fervently than ever! People are dying, can you see?

What is God trying to say? We know not when God will take our loved ones away. I know not when God will take me away. I only know I have One Life, with only 24 hours, 7 days a week, 365 days a year and it's short. So Live it to the fullest. Just live it the way God intended you to live. Just live it without regrets.

Is he still sovereign in this? Can I continue to trust him? My answer? Absolutely! Jer 29: 11. For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

And for my 2 friends, it's only a temporary separation. You have landed to your final destination. I look forward to seeing you in heaven.

Thursday, April 06, 2006
What an Evil World

I am always disturbed when I walk on the streets, on the train. Disturbed by what? Deeply disturbed by the scenes I see. What scenes? Teenage girls holding hands. Don't you hold hands with your girl friends when you were that age? Yes, I do, but mine's the innocent naive girls holding hands to go toilet, to tell you I'm your friend and I will always be there for you.

You see, these girls are not merely holding hands. They are hugging and acting intimately in public! Many years back, I was disturbed when I see teenagers (BGR) hugging and kissing in public. That says something about their physical intimacy rating. Definitely more than 5! Especially more when it's not in public!

And now, the world has revolved such that the trend is not just BGR, but GGR! This is worrying. There are girls, who behave like guys, cut their hair so short and spiky, dress like a boy and play the role of a boyfriend. What is the world going to? Evil Evil Evil

In the beginning, God has created Adam and Eve. A man and a woman. A man and a woman are meant for each other. Not a man for a man or a woman for a woman. The bible says in Romans1:26-27. Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lust. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion. Homosexuality and lesbianism is a SIN! Get it? But why don't the people involved see it that way? Are they blinded spiritually? Influenced by the media that it is acceptable? An act of rebellion?

Everything we do, regardless of whether it is a sin or not, is a personal choice. You are not born this way or shaped to have such inclinations. It is onlya matter of choices. So make the right choice that pleases God. I feel pain, when I see teenage girls, throwing their life away, sinning against God. God help them.

Wednesday, April 05, 2006
A Hamster Conflict

Recently, I had an slight disagreement with a friend (over the way we see things), who claimed to be a hamster lover. Now, I know of another person who really loves hamsters. He keeps 13 hammies at home with 4 cages! Wow....that's really a lot. And he buys lots of fun stuff for His Precious.

Hamster lover friend (HLF) revealed over a casual chat that he does not place a water bottle in his winter white tank. The reason was because they pee too much and make a mess. Now, that's where the fire comes in. Me, as devoted hamster lover, would never do that to my hammies. Come on, water is essential to life, even the bible says that. Everyone gets thirsty, even hamsters! And imagine, you are thirsty and crying out for water and no one comes to feed you? You gnaw on the cage but no one cares? Poor thing. HLF should not drink so much water too, since he would also pass water.

I pleaded and begged on behalf of the cuties but hamster lover friend was not moved. Hmph!

One morning, I thought of his cuties and remembered that he said he would name his hamsters Victimised, Abused and Tortured. Oh well, what apt names given!

And he told me, that's how he thought of the names because I think of them as poor things but he thinks they are doing fine. Unrepentance! He went on to say that they are Happy Victimised, Joyful Abused, Cheerful Tortured, Smiley Traumatised and Hilarious Harassed.

Haha...what wonderful names! And man, HLF, wake up, these are illusions!

He replied:"Exactly. Illusions. They are not victimised nor tortured. Just names."

Piangz! HLF, you are badly deceived I should pray for you. Oh Lord! Open up his eyes and give him compassion!

He finally gave in because he is victimised by my harassment.

Yeah...See God answers prayers! Haha. Don't try to underestimate women, especially those who prays to God. Women have their ways of getting the things they want. I must fight for the rights of these cute, adorable defendless creatures.

And guess what. HLF said:"Ya, they have their ways by harassing people. Like flies. Ha, peace at last!"

Well, never mind about the flies. Important thing is I really love animals and I don't wish to see them unhappy. God created such cute animals to be loved.

Monday, April 03, 2006
Levites

I was given a privilege to serve in the church choir yesterday. It was really FUN FUN FUN. First time on stage, performing as a Levite. The experience is difficult to pen down in words. The experience I had was different from the impression I had painted prior to serving. I learnt some new things. Firstly, the job of a levite is to worship God. The vertical relationship with God has to established first. Secondly a levite has the responsbility to engage the congregation to worship God, and that's a horizontal relationship. And because of this responsibility, a levite needs to worship God in a higher standard so that the congregation will be engaged in the worship of a certain intimacy. And that's what makes serving the choir "not as easy as you think". Imagine clapping hands, jumping continuously for 15 minutes and lifting up hands for another 10 minutes is really no joke. But well, the Lord deserves it.

And the whole experience is really like an aerobic class. This is what I call a "holy exercise". And that's really a good workout. After all we are a holy temple of God and we need to maintain it well. No more excuses for not exercising. Just a side joke, after this month, I hope to wave and clap my flappy arms away. Now you see it, now you dont.

Now, my calves are hurting and screaming in pain where my muscles are flooded with lactic acid. God, please dont let me have any difficulty walking down the stairs tomorrow. I remember during G12, I danced so much my calfs were in pain for 3 days. And for that 3 days, I had to hold onto a railing while I walked down the stairs. Not too glam.

Sunday, April 02, 2006
Rat race - Am I supposed to be in or out?

Today I attended a course on SL. It was cool. Way too cool! Now that it's all quiet in the night, it's time to do some pensive thoughts. At the reflection, we were told to reflect on the rat race. We are in this world, but not of the world. The world tells us that we have to be in the rat race in order to survive. Rat race promises us bread on the table, acceptance in this social world, stability and probably fame, wealth and glory. That sounds cool to some. But the bible stated so clearly that these are considered RUBBISH. When compared to the glory of God and winning his souls, these have to 靠边站. I totally agree with the bible and have no doubt that every word is the TRUTH and the only truth and is breathed by God. Yes, that's what I tell my girls too, that studies, your BGR, money, they amount to NOTHING at the end of the day. Souls and the word of God stands till eternity and hence our focus has to be right.

However, if we are totally out of the rat race to earn our keep by climbing the career ladder, how am I going to bring the meat home? I guess then, the issue is your values. What rules your life? Is your life only surrounded by running the meaningless rat race, trying to keep up the pace, so that your wheel doesnt stop spinning? There is no purpose and you dont even know why you are on this race? Or your eyes are fixed on Jesus, God, who is your provider. No doubt we have to be part of the rat race to keep our living, but understand that God ultimately is your provider and if he calls us to walk the path less taken, your answer should be, Yes Lord, here I am. Yes Lord, here I am.

I guess I'm happy with my answer, until the Lord show me more.